
“Life on hold sucks!”
read the bus shelter ad.
They meant the pandemic
I suppose
But what wry, ironic understatement
If you think of
The awesome reality of
Life on hold.
Customers in the supermarket
Frozen in place
Gripping Yorick skulls of well-traveled lettuce
Infinitely poised at the switch from
Succulent to wilting;
Cash register drawers
Permanently open
And you with your hand always thrust
In your pocket
Searching for the loonie
With your face burning red
And all the disapproving
Shoppers behind you
Congealed like half-conceived monuments
In ferocious attitudes of impatience.
Life on hold.
Cyclists lassoed by some
Gravitational lariat as they
Round the corner;
From now until who-knows-when
Held like rabbits in the moment-before,
The eighteen-wheeler
Bearing down on them,
Their hearts
like fireworks, forever the same prayer
Like an acupuncture needle in their
Lizard brain, jiggling and tingling.
Life on hold for lovers
Caught just before their mouths
could touch, their lust
Untranslated, love reduced
To an ache in the balls
A detonation in the breasts
Stuck in the quicksand
of each other’s eyes, inhaling
Garlic breath, an
Embryonic “no” echoing,
Their embrace stuck
Like a needle on vinyl beside
The awesome stillness
Of the fountain’s jets
Whose water dazzles like crystals in mid-arc
But stoney, silent,
Offering no fizz of refreshment.
The suspended sun,
Oozing and pale yellow,
Licks the polar cap,
And a little girl
Stands by the lovers
With an ice-cream cone.
She knows that,
Maybe not this time
But some time,
That top-most scoop, with all its
Pink and turquoise sprinkles,
Its chocolatey drizzle, is going to gasp,
Then totter,
Slip and splat on the
Pavement’s hot griddle;
And the little girl, too, is on hold,
No longer a child but
Not a grown-up either,
Lacking a child’s innocence
And swift amnesia
But not yet old enough to say,
“Fuck it.
I never really liked rum raisin
All that much.”
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