“Maksim Gorky Pretends to be a Dom at the Bathhouse”

A serious(ly gay) interlude.


After a few sleepless nights of

  • quasi-Christian prayer (by quasi-Christian I mean that I cherry pick all the heart-warming bits and the foodie miracles and the Late Night Talk Show on the Mount, and leave out:
    • the whole crucifixion-resurrection boondoggle, sorry, not goin’ there;
    • anything icky like leprosy or raising from the dead;
    • the Book of Revelation, are you serious?;
    • everything by mister life-of-the-party Saint Paul;
    • and the entire concept of evil, including Satan, who I actually get along with pretty well. He’s just like you and me, except he never complains about not being able to find a parking spot.)—
  • Buddhist meditation (aka tedium as a lifestyle, with sore legs, in order to acknowledge that life is tedious);
  • dedicated carb gorging (Betty Crocker French Chocolate Frosting straight from the can, and I’m GLAD, I tell you! GLAD!); and
  • kicking myself hard in the seventh chakra—

—after this merciless, no-illusions spiritual reckoning, I’ve come, reluctantly, to a sorry and disheartening realization.

My blog just isn’t fucking GAY enough.


No, wait, come back, hear me out! My blog truly has many, many strikes against it on the not-gay-enoughness front. Take gay icons, for example.

We’re talking about those broads—always broads, gay men adore women more ardently than straight men do, minus the pussy pounding, so gay icons are always always female—with the wide lapels and the manly hands, drag queen hands big enough to clutch a Van Cleef and Arpels minaudière, a double vodka tonic, two uncut cocks, and a Player’s King Size without batting a three-inch eyelash; the belter-broad gay icons with the voices like air raid sirens announcing their imminent incendiary bombing of our eardrums and their emotional trajectory from thinly-veiled hysteria to pulmonary embolism.

Like, where are they?

Where have all the drama queen, epicene gay icons gone, always assuming we don’t count long-time passing Bernie Sanders? Somewhere other than slowpainful dot com, apparently.

Well, comb me out with hedge clippers and tuck me with super-glue, what an outrage!

The tut-tuts continue. To my eternal shame, my blog never shrieks, with Bette Davis, “What a dump!” as it flounces into a room like a wind farm on heels; it doesn’t bawl its eyes out with Barbra-Fanny for My Man.

With almost perfect certainty I can attest that my blog, horrified by Olivia’s predicament, takes pains to avoid wasting time trapped in a wrought iron elevator getting all musky and feral;

I will beg to sign a confession stating that my blog has never, suddenly, and/or last summer, traveled with Viola and Sebastian to see the Encantadas, with the beach the color of caviar and the sky all alive, all alive.

My blog, if you can believe one more impossible thing before breakfast, doesn’t even sing the Judy Garland at Carnegie Hall album, not even at three in the morning after all the boys have made dramatic exits ostensibly because of perceived slights and then reassembled once they’re around the corner in front of the bathhouse entrance so that everyone in the world is having wild porn sex without me.

Feeling distinctly bitter about this.

But, like a thinner, more delusional Sally Bowles standing in the darkened wings of my self-esteem, I lift my face to the hot love-lick of the follow spot, switch on my synthetic thousand-watt smile and Fosse myself back to center stage where, after an arch wink and a couple of back-flips, I straddle the rickety bar stool of petty revenge.

It’s gonna happen! Happen sometime! Maybe this time—!


Ever, ever less gay. Especially not gay enough with the cancel culture.

My site does not throw half-chewed doggie toys at Mayor Pete for hobbing his nob with the Sally Ann, or RIP Ellen for being in the same airspace as George Bush and having the gall to not spit in his face. What’s being gay all about if it’s not about total self-absorption and carefully choreographed temper tantrums?

Sorry, hungry poor kids, no food from Sally Ann for you, but take a moment while your stomach rumbles to imagine how woke we must be feeling for sticking to our principles as we stuff our faces with organic Christmas turkey!

My blog is not holding up its end, so to speak, about complaining that Black Lives Matter is spoiling all the self-indulgent fun of PRIDE by daring to suggest that daily experiences of anti-blackness merit stopping the hallowed parade—during which we complain that all those in-your-face drag queens are “spoiling it”— for a protest and requesting that the police not be present.

White solidarity must be maintained because, after all, we’re progressive. Racist? Don’t be daft! We stopped buying Aunt Jemima pancake mix months ago!

It’s the Asians you gotta watch out for.

(Asians! Which, to a Canadian, means, “Chinese.” Overrunning the bathhouses with their smooth bodies and crazy language! And pushy? OMFG! Won’t take ‘no’ for an answer! Pushier than Jews, even!

(Asians! Buying all the condos, aceing all the entrance exams, building inscrutable enclaves of dim sum restaurants and exporting COVID-19 and generally being all Asian about things. Buying all the condos!

(Well, white Canadians, why don’t YOU go out and buy a condo then? And anyway, let’s nail this coffin lid shut: It’s not Asians who are buying all the condos. It’s property speculators. The problem is allowing speculation on property to the extent that the human right of accommodation becomes a commodity on a market and disappears. Not Asians.)


And in a final descent into the pit of social humiliation and incompetent gay blogger-dom, there are virtually no instances of gay guys

  • shrieking at the sight of a vagina while waving their arms like partially unthawed chicken tenders;
  • discussing “gay culture” (= drag queens and gay bars and gay clubs, and you can just take your Sistine Chapels and copies of Ulysses and place them in your rosebud while we gulp down some more GHB and lie face down on our beds waiting for the top to come along who’ll finally arrange that pervy gangbang every bottom’s been panting for since around 1756 but hasn’t experienced because everyone’s on meth and can’t get a hard-on, which means everyone’s a bottom; kind of like all those yoga instructors wanting to sell classes but everyone’s a yoga instructor);
  • complaining, in a campy way that offers up our internalized homophobia in front of the whole world, that all those drag queens and naked guys and leather queens at PRIDE are “spoiling it for the rest of us”, ie, complaining that PRIDE makes us visible when visibility is the entire point of PRIDE and—

Fuck it.

Here’s a gay poem, which maybe, just maybe, will resonate while earning me some brownie points against my gay want. I dedicate this to the in-your-face drag queens and the leather daddies reeking of poppers and cowhide and the naked men with ordinary bodies, saggy or sweet human male bodies, and the transexuals who endure all the venom and incomprehension and violence of the eternally entitled shoved off their pedestals, to all of you who who insist on being gloriously visible, shaking with fear inside but outwardly defiant, in full proud-peacock display.

This is for you warriors, fierce in your integrity, who were and are the frontrunners clearing the safe space for all the rest of us bland wannabe suburbanites. Unlike your supple, quicksilver personas we’re just stiff, white picket fences yearning for any place like home.

Quentin Crisp, the very model of a reluctant martyr, flamboyantly queer in 1920’s London when even mentioning homosexuality was unthinkable in polite society, once confessed:

“It’s been agony but I couldn’t have done it any other way.”

“Maksim Gorky Pretends to be a Dom at the Bathhouse”

Peter Pinski

Said, "Come In-ski
Won't you play with my foreskin-ski?
We could get a little… kink-ski
Make teabag-sky on my chin-ski!"

Gorky taken quite aback-ski
“Let us take another tack-ski
If you feel it’s not too bold-ski
You will do as you are toldski!”

Peter slut-ski
Quite abrupt-ski
Turns until-ski
Shows his butt-ski

“What a pit-ski!
Not too bold-ski,
But it’s fit-ski
You be told-ski:

“See my tit-ski?
How I rub-ski?
Call me Mitzki—
I’m a sub-ski!”

Life was good-ski

Landed gent-ski


To be honest, I’m really quite gorky about it.


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