for James H.
IF WE WERE POSSIBLE—
Christ, what a thought! —
it would have to be
in some other continuum
strung out in time
between Lost In Space
and Planet of the Apes—
the original, not the remake—
where my love like giant
Noma bulbs leaks
Red Green Blue
pure Christmas colors
it would have to be
suspended in aspic
somewhere in affect
between Keir Dullea (lusciously preserved in the vacuum jar of his Paco Rabanne space suit
in Kubrick’s ground-breaking 2001)
and Kate Hepburn (magnificent!) shocking the children
with jewelry hung from her nipples
teeth clenched, then through a narrow slit
launching the swift arrows of her repartee
in the ’68 screenplay of
Lion in Winter.
And while we’re on the subject of me,
Have I ever told you
I hate being a venomous frog?
It is so frightfully inconvenient at times!
Like now, when you say
(standing marooned in my bog, drowning in your MacIntosh, squashed hat bobbing with corks)
“I mustn’t leave my guest too long—”
I must dance the hootchy-cootchy
And I outlash with a crack of my bull-whip tongue
(That very same bullwhip tongue seen in slow unfurling motion,
eternal trope, in the seven o’clock reruns of Animal Kingdom
whose subject is the tranquility of nature)
“No we wouldn’t want that, would we?”
not want —would no — would that—oui oui — ?
Oh mon enfant.
Blathering’s a lonely task
The daily struggle to be astoundingly original so — cliché.
I don’t get your surprise,
any more than I get your stiff malodorous socks.
Just for me? Such tendresse!
“Waiter, gimme the soup doo jour! And that Entray of the day! And a little disgust, on the side just enough to whet the appetite!”
Your sunken totem face no longer worrisome since they
took AIDS off the list of
acceptable romantic endings
Your muzzy teeth a craft project
tombstones glamorous in fake fur
rammed haphazardly into the rim of your jaw,
as though to commemorate—
Recess? Mass burial?
“Gimme a break! This coffee’s cold!”
Your lips are white and pasty, darling.
Grams of guilt-ridden chems,
Seasons of serendipity!
Avail yourself, please do, of some Colgate
and my handy multi-tool travel brush!
And your pubes! Mon dieu! The rusty
steel wool pads I use to attack, to scrub and scrape the
cast iron pan would more sweetly accommodate
my shameless kiss, the nuzzly nestling of my cheek!
Your reek of ether, sour sweat, defeat
Your much-vaunted Apollonian line astray,
your plump-loaded historical brushes uncontained.
Your staining of me bleeds.
You are my wizened future, Apparition,
Ancient Mariner asthmatic, baying at the festooned threshold,
Alone alone, all all alone!
I’m the bride, the groom,
I’m Eleanor of Aquitane!—is nothing beyond me?—
I’m the unseen wedding room all a-quiver, stinking with white lilacs,
Alone on the wide wide sea!
“Gimme that old college try! Gimme that opium dream,
And a prolonged attack of the vapours!
That’s the spirit, honey! Now that’s what I call poetry!“
Hungry out of habit,
I’ll rise to your bait, I’ll take a bite,
But you are no more
lust-slaking than a blackened pan of chocolate cake
mixed at three A.M. with my old man hands, and baked,
then picked over with impatient fingers,
black cake scalding, steaming,
crumbling out of the black pan
wolfed down in close-up,
kitchen lights catching all my best angles
as I suck in blasts of soothing frigid air
to guard the vault of my mouth
against another assault